I'm like a book that's waiting to be read

lonexmirage @ 2007-07-13T00:51:00

2007-07-13T05:53:09Z

The last time I updated this, it was May 3rd, 2006. It is now...July 13th, 2007. That means I'll be 20 in about 11 days. I updated this thing religiously when I was 16/17. Dare I go back and read old entries? I'd be sooo embarrassed, but I think I might. It's interesting to see what you were like once upon a time. That way you can either say "Wow, I really hate how I was back then" and figure out ways to stray away from that...or you can realize how grounded and smart you were, and work to get back to yourself. We'll see what I end up doing.

I wonder if I still have friends on here..hmm..

lonexmirage @ 2005-12-28T03:12:00

2005-12-28T09:14:19Z

I haven't updated this in a good while. Not much to say. I'm bored. I miss school. I miss certain people *cough*. I hate this town. I really believe that I do. I don't know how I lived here for 18 years(well Edwardsville, Maryville, Collinsville...all the same dang place) and didn't go crazy. Dang.

lonexmirage @ 2005-12-19T01:29:00

2005-12-19T07:30:29Z

This just in.

3 out of 3 Collinsville kids who went to Greenville now say that they feel out of place here.

1 out of 1 Sabrina says that she feels out of place after being in St. Charles.

What the crap?

lonexmirage @ 2005-12-16T15:13:00

2005-12-16T21:14:05Z

Your password must contain at least one number or symbol. Your password is too easy to guess. It's recommended that you change it, otherwise you risk having your journal hijacked. Visit http://www.livejournal.com/changepassword.bml to change your password.

So, I dont' update for 3 months and get that message. I'm not changing my effin password, eff that! Go ahead and guess my password. Go hijack my journal. I don't care, just leave my password alone!

lonexmirage @ 2005-11-10T12:40:00

2005-11-10T18:42:23Z

So yeah, a couple of days ago we went to the ski factory, so here's our picture from that.

Justin, Dale, Adam, Me and *cough*ryan*cough*. Yes, I know...I tried to get him to change his name.

lonexmirage @ 2005-10-13T09:57:00

2005-10-13T15:03:03Z

Wow. So Shak-a-thon. Live in a box in Scott field for 2 days without eating anything and you're supposed to feel 'rewarded' and know what it's like to be homeless. BUT, silly me I'm not feeling what it's like to be homeless. I'm feeling what it's it's like to be cold, ticked off,and chlostraphobic....but not homeless. Maybe if you have asthma you shouldn't sleep in a box in the cold. Oh well, I'm not that smart. Certain people are ticking me off, like this one bia who's trying to take my man AND kates man at the same time. She knows what she's doing. SHe's our 'friend' but not really. Because she sucks. I should set her shak on fire. I was supposed to set dales on fire, but yeah we already broke it. We rolled him down the hill. And his shack broke. Now I sleep on top of it. lol.

There's an absolutely beautiful guy in here right now. HE's not cute, not hot...just beautiful. He's like an effin greek god or something. Like zeuss or hercules...or fabio! Amazing..this guy is just amazing looking. No man should be that beautiful. It's either him or Taylor Hanson..lol, 2 most beautiful men ever. When I'm around him or like in his prescence I feel unworthy or something. Like i'm not good enough to breathe the same sacred AIR as this kid. Beautiful.

lonexmirage @ 2005-10-06T02:03:00

2005-10-06T06:59:13Z

:( :( :*( Nuff' said. I'm going to go cry some more.

lonexmirage @ 2005-10-01T02:29:00

2005-10-01T07:25:05Z

I don't even know anymore..I think I quit.....yeah, I'm pretty sure that I'm confused.

lonexmirage @ 2005-09-06T16:39:00

2005-09-06T21:36:12Z

October rule my arse. Eff that shiznit. I'm in love NOW.

It's the end of the world

2005-08-22T08:25:27Z

Wow. So yeah. I never, ever, ever thought I wouldn't like something that Hanson did. I mean, really, I thought that I'd love ever song, CD and video that they ever made, just because, ya know they're Hanson. But their new video...*shakes head* I just don't know what to say. I want to love it..and I want to think it's awesome..but then I'd be lying to myself lol. This is a sad sad day for me. This is a historical moment...I hate...i mean I...I really.....Ireallydontlikehansonsnewvideo. :( It's just...it makes me wonder what the heck kind of drugs they were on when they thought of the concept for it! that was hard. please forgive me.

lonexmirage @ 2005-08-20T22:41:00

2005-08-21T05:41:54Z

HAPPY BIRFDEY TWIN ASHALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

Now you're legal to do whatever or whomever you please!! Oh Jordan!! Joel, we got a LEGAL one for ya!!

lonexmirage @ 2005-08-20T02:24:00

2005-08-20T07:25:39Z

i haven't updated lj in a long time. like everyone else, i left lj for xanga. im a horrible person. but i get more comments there, and i'm a comment whore, lol so yeah! heres a copy and paste though, in case any of you were suffering witthout my updates. (insert eye roll)

Hmmm....not much is going on right now, but i'm bored, so I guess all I have left to do is update this thing. I was really hoping it wouldn't come down to that, because I always end up rambling and saying really really pointless things that noone really cares about. Even I think my entries are really boring, lol buuuttt thats okay.

Like I said before, not much is happening around here. Just me getting ready to head off into the jungle(IE: Greenville!). Finally finished up my shopping today, and oh my goodness, I never knew that there was soooo much! Really overwhelming. We ran into a few of my moms friends, and one was from Greenville and she found out I was going there and was like "is it your first year?" and I told her it was and she's like "It'll be your last" How encouraging lol, but she did go off about how hot the guys were there so ya know... Then we ran into another one of my moms friends(we ran into everyone today, no joke lol) and we were talking about me leaving for college and she goes "You're so cute( whoooa lol), you look so young!!" and her daughter goes "I saw you earlier and figured you were like 15!". haha, thats a big step up from 12! When I got home, my mom decided it was time for me to pack,a nd yeah, lol she basically did it for me. Okay, she did it all for me, I just got everything for her and she went to town.

LOL, is it bad that my mommy packed my bags? Maybe thats why everyone is spazzing about me going off on my own. Haha, family, friends, even my brothers friends are all worried about me. All of my brothers friends are like "Dude...she's so sheltered, is she going to be able to handle the mean world?" Like....people I haven't seen since my brother was in grade school are all freaking out. I've gotten some offers from a few guys in case I need a body guard. That was pretty ackward. lol. i'm like 'dude..i'm going to big bad Greenville...oooooh alert the national guards.' My family members on both sides are taking bets on how long it will be before i crack. They all seem to be under the impression that since when I was little, i'd freak out when anyone who wasn't my mom or dad looked at me looked at me, that I wont be able to handle being away from them 18 years later? Makes sense to me! lol, so yeah, now i'm determined to prove everyone wrong. And since I always have to be right, bring it on!

Oh, and I finally caught up to 2005 technology and my mom ordered me a cell phone, because Greenville is long distance. Finally! lol, I feel complete! If anyone wants the number just ask...even though I don't know WHY you would. I don't have it yet, it's in the mail and shoudl be here by monday..lol ashley thinks its weird that we ordered it by phone....

lonexmirage @ 2005-08-10T22:01:00

2005-08-11T03:02:00Z

I just realized that I haven't seen Sabrina online in a long while! I know the storm fried her internet...but for that long? Sabrina where are you! Do i need to send out a search party?

lonexmirage @ 2005-08-10T15:25:00

2005-08-10T20:32:26Z

Hm, I think it's finally time to update this thing! I've been all over the internet talking to people from Greenville, because ya know, i don't want to go in there totally lost and I started talking to this girl named Heather. She's really cool and we have so much in common, it's kind of scary lol, and yeah we got to talking about how cool it would be if we were roommates and how much fun we would have. So yeah, after I found out Robin wasn't going(wihfalkjak!! grrrr), Heather called the dude she's been talking to at Greenville and I emailed my counselor Jen and we waited and waited. Today, i was sleeping peacefully(Yeah, it was like 2 lol) and my brother hands me the phone and goes "It's your roommate" and yeah, it being early for me, I'm like wtf is he talking about and yeah, I answered the phone and shes like "WE'RE ROOMIES!!" haha, I'm like omg what and yeah, we talked for awhile and yeah, i finally have a roommate! and I know her! and I like her and I don't think(lol dont THINK) she'll try to kill me in the middle of the night. Haha yay! *dances* I have a roomie and she's not like scar face! That takes SO much pressure off! whew! Now we know what to bring and what the other is bringing and all that stuff and we already have sort of an understanding with each other....it almost seems too good to be true. lol thats never good

lonexmirage @ 2005-08-04T01:06:00

2005-08-04T06:06:28Z

Yeah, so school starts for everyone here on the 16th, so that's kind of weird. This summer flew by..it's really scary. So yeah, we took my brother and sister to register for school today, and when we took my little brother to register at the Middle School, it happend again. EVERYONE thought that I was the one registering, instead of him. Then, this lady proceeded to ask if we were twins. Hmph. I just keep telling myself that in a few years I'll want to look younger. Now it's just kind of weird though. That's like what...the 10th event in the past year or so?

I get a kiddie cup at Denny's because the waitress was like 80..that made me mad, I wanted a big glass of soda!

The girl at McDonalds kept asking me if I was old enough to drive, and if I was sure that I wasn't out joyriding. Finally I showed her my license to shut her up.

My moms friend meets us and asks where the kid is that just got her license. She points to me. The friend says "She doesn't look a day over 12!"

I take my sister to her friends house and her friend's sister goes "You can't drive! You look like you're 10!" Her other friend goes "Oh shut up, she looks at least 12!"

I take my sister to her OTHER friend's house and her friend's older sister asks me if I know any high school kids.I tell her that i'm in her grade and she goes "Oh...I thought you were still in middle school...you look so YOUNG"

All of my brother's friends think that I'm alot younger than I am

Noone at the Hanson concert believed that I was 17. Apparently I don't know how old I am?

At my mom's school reunion when she told them I'd graduated that day, 99% of them thought she meant middle school. That extra 1% has known me since I was 2.

It used to be kind of funny, but now it's just old. *yawn* The verdict is in, I look like I'm 12 apparently. Majority rules. I wish I could be 12 again. That was a fun age.

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-30T02:46:00

2005-07-30T09:47:17Z

The journal is different..for now. I dont know how much I like the blackness, so it'll be pink tomorrow. I'm just tired of messing with it!

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-29T04:06:00

2005-07-29T09:06:16Z

Wow, so my brother got another weird phone call at like 1 AM tonight and this time it wasn't that Cindy chick, it was a bunch of guys. Basically they kept asking me where he was and I kept saying I don't know, and then after awhile they started dropping a couple of F-bombs and A-bombs and all kinds of other bombs lol, so I finally gave the phone to my dad since everyone thinks that he's my brother when I hand him the phone, and when they heard "my brother" they hung up.

So, I told my brother about it when they got home and told him some of the words coming out of their mouths and he like snapped. He called them and used some words I've never heard come out of his mouth, mixed in with some "you don't use those words around my little sister EVER". Haha, not like you're not using them right now telling them not to use them! I wasnt supposed to hear though, so shhhh! Haha and it's not like I haven't heard those words before. But yeah, my brother's totally protective of me, it's kind of amusing! If I'd known he'd snap like that I would have let it go.

So, awhile ago, I wrote about how I was worried about my uncle because he was going off with this girl that he'd met online AGAIN, and how I didn't think it would work out. Most everyone told me it would be okay, and blah blah blah, but i KNEW it wouldn't be okay because it's never okay when he does this. So yeah, they're in South Dakota now and my mom asked him if he wanted her to forward his money there for him. And he's like "oh, dont worry about it, I'm coming back on Monday" and shes like "okay...", but she knew it was coming eventually. But he called on Tuesday and he's like "They won't let me leave, there's no bus station here, the closest one is 5 towns and 2 hours away"...or so the girlfriend TOLD him. My mom called the greyhound station, and there's a bus station IN THE TOWN, like 26 blocks away from where they live, so they totally lied to him to keep him there. So, he confronted them about it and asked the girlfriends mom to drive him to the busstation, because he's not allowed to drive and the lady won't take him! Like, he wants out but noone will take him to the bus station to come back here. And he can't walk because he has bad knees, and if he walks more than a mile he'll like collapse or something. So I don't know. It's so messed up. We told him not to go, that he'd want to come back in like a month..and okay it's been a LITTLE more than a month, but still. Noone listens to us. Now he's practically being held hostage there, and my dad is talking about making the drive down there to bust him out. Like Mission: Impossible or something. I better brush up on my spy skills I guess! Too bad I'm afraid of confrontation. And the dark!

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-29T03:49:00

2005-07-29T08:57:10Z

Wow, so my mom and I are more alike than we ever could have imagined. We were talking today about my uncle's girlfriend or whatever she is, and she was telling me about how the girlfriend assumed that my mom doesn't like her. My mom never did anything to make her think that she didn't like her, and the chick goes "well, you never tried to talk to me or get to know me". That made me go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, because that's the exact same problem I have. People think I don't like them because I don't go out of my way to get all in their face and talk to them, and I'm just really really shy and I guess I got that from my mom. So we started talking about how she's always had that problem, and so have I. So many people have told me that they didn't like me because they thought I didn't like them, because I seemed stuck up, and didnt talk to them. I mean, for my mom, this has gone as far back as grade school, and it's the exact same for me. We figured out that we're both really shy at first, and if there isn't some common ground to talk about, we're really not going to talk, because we're not comfortable just walking up to people we don't know and talking to them. So yeah, it really hurts when people accuse you of not liking them or accuse you of being stuck up or whatever when that couldn't be further from the truth. I mean, if you haven't given me a reason to not like you, I probably don't dislike you, ya know? It's kind of annoying too, sorry I'm not all up in your face "hi hi hi lets be best friends!!!!! omg!!!", but blame it on my mom. I got it from her obviously! totally not my fault! But yeah, it was definately weird. We keep discovering all these weird little tidbits that we have in common, but to everyone out there, WE DON'T HATE YOU, WE DON'T DISLIKE YOU, WE DON'T HATE ANYONE! WE'RE JUST SHY!! Wait until I TELL you I don't like you..until then, you're probably okay in my book.

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-28T02:59:00

2005-07-28T07:59:54Z

Hmmm..I guess I should update this thing. I will NOT leave LJ for xanga, I will NOT. Me and LJ are liek THIS. But yeah, not much is going on right now. Less than a month until I go off to college, just like alot of my friends. That's going to be weird. Most of my friends are going off to different states, or at least St. Louis. lol. Or, they're going to SIUE or SWIC. I'm like a lone wolf, off to Greenville by myself. I must be INSANE!! That whole anxiety thing is starting to kick in. We went school supply shopping yesterday for my little brother and sister, but all I got was a dry erase board because they're cool. LOL, I didn't know what else to get, I'm sooooo clueless. Like..what am I supposed to get? Ah! 20 bucks says I go crazy before August 26th.

An amusing little thing happend after we got home though. For some reason, the bottom lock on our front door never ever locks, so we just lock the top one. Well last night, for some reason it actually LOCKED, and when we put the key in the little keyhole thing, the key wouldnt go in because something was jammed in there. So weird. So yeah, we're locked out for like 2 hours while my dad tries everything imaginable to get the door unlocked. Of course noone had a garage door opener and we just HAD to lock all of the patio doors..so yeah that definately sucked. We waited in the car and I think I fell asleep. My mom said we were in there for 2 hours..I don't remember it being nearly that long, so yeah, I probably fell asleep, I always fall asleep in cars. Well, that's all I'm going to write for now, me and ashley are supposed to go looking at tattoo places tomorrow! Another great adventure! I'll update if we don't get eaten by some big scary biker guy named Earl.

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-24T01:50:00

2005-07-24T06:54:15Z

ITS MAH BIRFDEY!!! lol, yay? It's the big one. The one where there's no turning back! *sings nfg* "and it's aaaallll down hill from heeeeereeee". I think I'm having a mid-life crisis or something. lol, and wouldn't ya know that when 12:00 came I was watching St. Louis country and "I miss back when" came on by tim mcgraw and then a little bit after that "remember when" came on. So now my sister is making fun of me coz I'm old!! :( Blah on her! OH well, I can do lots now. Like go to jail. And go to war...and buy cigarettes so I can get lung cancer...and buy porno...and buy a lottery ticket so that i can gamble all the money I don't have away...lol yeah. I told my mom I was going to buy a lottery ticket because yeah, cigarettes are too expensive and I don't even smoke so that would be a bust. At least I can frame a lottery ticket or something. lol.

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-22T16:43:00

2005-07-22T21:42:42Z

for sabrina:

http://www.livejournal.com/community/ohnotheydidnt/2807090.html#cutid1

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-22T05:46:00

2005-07-22T10:46:11Z

5:34 am and I'm wide awake! My sister and i found one of my old tapes and we watched it, and it has like 9 different performances of Hanson's Penny and Me...lol I could definately play that song if you handed me a guitar and said "here." I've done it before, I'm still proud of myself! It was a lotta bit off, but you could see what I was attempting. Haha, there's also a buncha NFG on there, so me and Brittany started dancing around like losers and jumping and yeah we totally woke our parents up but it was fun pretending to be rockstars! Then we decided to watch my Hanson dvd and I opened it and found the Hanson dvd, AND the NFG dvd I've been looking for since FOREVER!! I was sooooo happy.

And yeah, my brother was watching TBN(he lives by those channels) and usually I can't stand some of the fake looking preacher guys on there who preach and then beg for money, but there was this one guy who was really well spoken and he delivered the message better than I've heard anyone in a long long time. He inspired me so much that he made me sit back and realize...wow I suck! lol, so yeah, to anyone who's made me mad or ticked me off or anyone that I really really deteste(which is only like 1 person right now lol), it's over! I'm done, I'm finished, whatever I had against you and whatever you had against me, it's done and it doesnt really matter anymore, it probably shoudn't have happend in the first place. Take it or leave it, but cherish me saying this because I'm in a really really good mood that only a combination of Hanson, NFG and spiritual talk can produce. Soooo take it or leave it.

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-20T03:43:00

2005-07-20T08:43:30Z

So, I got really really bored and decided to post a list of random facts about me. It's long, and you'll get distracted. So I know that noone is going to read it all unless they're insanely bored. lol, so here goes.

130 Random Facts I bet you didn't know about me.
1. I’m actually very shy at first if you don’t know me
2. I knew people from kindergarten until 6th grade who never heard me talk until the end of 6th grade.
3. I think I’ve improved a lot!
4. I’m one of the most sensitive people in the world
5. My feelings get hurt REALLY easily
6. I take everything to heart
7. If someone says one negative thing about me, it bothers me so much and it follows me around forever.
8. There are things from preschool that were said that still bug me
9. That’s probably really pathetic..not a fact but I’m running out of things.
10. My mom and dad have been together for 23 years
11. They’re STILL not married
12. That’s really freaking weird to me and everyone else.
13. My parents are 20 years apart
14. I don’t find that strange at all because they’re my parents and they just fit together so perfectly.
15. One of my biggest pet peeves is someone pretending like they know so much about me.
16. Noone really knows THAT much about me
17. I’m still trying to figure out who I am
18. Since this is number 18, turning 18 scares the living daylights out of me.
19. I’m too dependent on other people
20. When I was little my mom called me her shadow because I followed her around everywhere
21. She still calls me that because I tend to follow her now
22. My mom and I are becoming really good friends now that I’m older
23. That makes me happy :happy:
24. As much as I say I don’t care about what people think of me, I still let stuff bug me a lot
25. I’m already running out of things to say.
26. I used to hate the color pink
27. Now it’s one of my favorite colors
28. I used to love the color blue
29. I don’t love it so much anymore.
30. I really really can’t stand rap music
31. Most people find that surprising because I’m black and I’m supposed to LOVE it?
32. I really love country though
33. I guess that makes me backwards
34. I didn’t get along with most of my extended family until about a year and a half ago.
35. That’s because I’m really shy around people I don’t have a lot in common with.
36. They took that as being stuck up
37. Most people think I’m stuck up at first
38. That couldn’t be further from the truth
39. I’m one of the most self conscious people I know
40. I do everything I can to avoid mirrors sometimes
41. I hate the way I look most of the time
42. I’m a different person around different people.
43. Not because I’m fake or anything, but because of how comfortable I feel around you and the vibes you send off to me.
44. I forgive easily
45. But I NEVER forget
46. Even though I say I’m over stuff, I’m not.
47. If you’ve ever made me mad, chances are I still think about it a lot and I get mad all over again.
48. Then I freeze you out for awhile.
49. I either love someone or I intensely dislike them. There’s no in between with me.
50. I cry really easily. The littlest thing can make me cry.
51. Because of that, I can cry on cue.
52. Days of our lives is one of my favorite shows
53. I’ve literally been watching it since the day I was born
54. Me and my mom bond over it.
55. I’m mad because all of my classes next year are during the show.
56. I’m really mad because I don’t know how to set the VCR to tape it!
57. My favorite band is Hanson.
58. They’re really my heroes.
59. It makes me really really mad when someone insults them
60. I did a paper in one class on them and got an A
61. I did a speech in another class and got an A because I knew what I was talking about and had so much passion for the topic.
62. I used to be really into the pop/punk music like GC and NFG.
63. I still like those 2 bands, but besides them and a few others, I can’t take much of it.
64. I can’t stand drama or stress.
65. It literally makes me sick to my stomach.
66. I have really really bad anxiety
67. I missed most of my field trips in grade school because I had such anxiety.
68. I almost missed prom because of it as well.
69. With all of this college crap and trying to decide where to go and drama with friends and stuff, I almost developed an ulcer.
70. I’ve wanted to go to Greenville since I was like 12.
71. But I didn’t apply until the last minute.
72. The fear of rejection got to me.
73. I have an enormous fear of rejection
74. I’m always afraid people aren’t going to like me because of my race.
75. Unfortunately I’m not too far off sometimes.
76. I almost went to Fontbonne University.
77. But I’m not obviously because it was too expensive.
78. I’m actually really disappointed that I’m not going.
79. As much as I hated CHS, I’m really afraid of leaving it because I’m afraid of what lies outside of those walls.
80. I’m really sheltered
81. I’ve never smoked anything
82. I’ve never had a sip of alcohol
83. My seminar made fun of me in 10th grade because I didn’t know that weed/pot/marijuana were the same things.
84. I plan to stay a virgin until I’m married.
85. I get annoyed very easily.
86. There isn’t really anyone that I know that hasn’t annoyed me.
87. I can think of 3 people off the top of my head.
88. I inherited my mom’s temper
89. The littlest thing can set me off.
90. When I get mad I cry
91. My brother thinks it’s hilarious.
92. I’m a really ditzy person sometimes.
93. A lot of people think it’s an act...but I really do get confused easily.
94. I had straight A’s in first grade.
95. Except in math...I had a C.
96. I think that’s why I’m so bad in math..another one of my stupid grudges.
97. I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up
98. I’m thinking of doing what my dad wants me to do and become a dentist.
99. Dentists terrify me. I hate them.
100. When I was 2 my dentist told me he was going to knock me out.
101. I thought he meant knock out like..fight
102. Ever since then I’ve been spoiled off of dentists.
103. My biggest fear is letting other people down.
104. That’s part of the reason I haven’t done anything terribly wrong, I’m afraid of disappointing my parents and everyone else.
105. It still bugs me that I never got to meet my grandma and great grandpa.
106. I cried everyday for 2 months after my great grandma died when I was 4.
107. I’m an insanely jealous person
108. I’m also a really private person
109. That’s why I’m surprised that I’m doing this.
110. I MUST be bored.
111. I’m insanely afraid of driving on the highway
112. I plan on finding a billion back roads to Greenville.
113. I’m daddy’s little girl
114. He had 5 boys before he had me
115. I’d be absolutely lost without either of my parents.
116. I’m probably the biggest dork I know.
117. I say a lot of things jokingly and people think I’m serous.
118. That makes me SO mad.
119.I was in the spelling bee when I was 8
120. I got out on the word crumb.
121. I’m still upset about that to this day.
122. I always feel really guilty about everything
123. This goes with the anxiety/stress thing because I’m always anxious that I did something wrong or made someone mad and then I end up getting sick.
124. I’m almost deathly allergic to seafood.
125. I wish someone had told me sushi was seafood.
126. I turn 18 in 4 days.
127. I go to college in 1 month and 6 days.
128. My mom asks me everyday if I’m still going because she knows that if she doesn’t I’ll chicken out.
129. When my brother and I were riding bikes when we were little, I chipped my front tooth.
130. It still hurts to this day sometimes.
131. I had gum surgery when I was 5.
132. Morons didn't put me to sleep fully.
133. I have an insane phobia of dogs.
134. Unfortunately this has stopped me from doing lots of things.
135. I'm running out of things to say but I had to make it an even number
136. I really thought I was going to marry taylor hanson when I was 9, I believed we were soulmates.
137. I really wasn't crazy.
138. If you're still reading this you're my new best friend.
139. This thing is so personal I’m thinking about not posting it.
140. I’m going to though because then I’ll be mad at myself for NOT posting it.

WHEW. That took an insanely long time, but it was kind of fun.

lonexmirage @ 2005-07-16T01:55:00

2005-07-16T06:55:23Z

For Those Who Take Life Too Seriously
1. Save The Whales. Collect The Whole Set.
2. A Day Without Sunshine Is Like, Night.
3. On The Other Hand, You Have Different Fingers.
4. I Just Got Lost In Thought. It Wasn't Familiar Territory.
5. 42.7 Percent Of All Statistics Are Made Up On The Spot.
6. 99 Percent Of Lawyers Give The Rest A Bad Name.
7. I Feel Like I'm Diagonally Parked In A Parallel Universe.
8. Honk If You Love Peace And Quiet.
9. Remember, Half The People You Know Are Below Average.
10. He Who Laughs Last Thinks Slowest.
11. Depression Is Merely Anger Without Enthusiasm.
12. The Early Bird May Get The Worm, But The Second Mouse Gets The Cheese.
13. I Drive Way Too Fast To Worry About Cholesterol.
14. Support Bacteria. They're The Only Culture Some People Have.
15. Monday Is An Awful Way To Spend 1/7 Of Your Week.
16. A Clear Conscience Is Usually The Sign Of A Bad Memory.
17. Change Is Inevitable, Except From Vending Machines.
18. Get A New Car For Your Spouse. It'll Be A Great Trade!
19. Plan To Be Spontaneous Tomorrow.
20. Always Try To Be Modest, And Be Proud Of It!
21. If You Think Nobody Cares, Try Missing A Couple Of Payments.
22. How Many Of You Believe In Psycho-Kinesis? Raise My Hand.
23. Ok, So What's The Speed Of Dark?
24. How Do You Tell When You're Out Of Invisible Ink?
25. If Everything Seems To Be Going Well, You Have Obviously Overlooked Something.
26. When Everything Is Coming Your Way, You're In The Wrong Lane.
27. Hard Work Pays Off In The Future. Laziness Pays Off Now.
28. Everyone Has A Photographic Memory. Some Just Do Not Have Film.
29. If Barbie Is So Popular, Why Do You Have To Buy Her Friends?
30. How Much Deeper Would The Ocean Be Without Sponges?
31. Eagles May Soar, But Weasels Do Not Get Sucked Into Jet Engines.
32. What Happens If You Get Scared Half To Death Twice?
33. I Used To Have An Open Mind But My Brains Kept Falling Out.
34. I Couldn't Repair Your Brakes, So I Made Your Horn Louder.
35. Why Do Psychics Have To Ask You For Your Name?
36. Inside Every Older Person Is A Younger Person Wondering What Happened?
37. Just Remember - If The World Did Not Suck, We Would All Fall Off.
38. Light Travels Faster Than Sound, Which Is Why Some People Appear Bright Until You Hear Them Speak.

Maybe this will finally work thanks to sabrina!

2005-07-15T09:36:22Z

Maybe this will finally work thanks to sabrina!
1. Pick your birth month.
2. Cross out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold what best applies to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. ~~Takes pride in oneself~~. ~~Has reputation.~~ ~~Easily consoled.~~ Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. ApproachableEmotional temperamental ~~and unpredictable.~~ Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. ~~Not revengeful~~. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. ~~Guides others physically and mentally.~~ Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hard-working. ~~No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone.~~ Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. ~~Never looks for friends.~~ Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover

EDIT. Now that this works. you all better do this, otherwise I'll be PISSED because I spent soooo much time fighting with this thing on this entry. so do it. public entry. you ALL better do it.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hard-working and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home décors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hard-working. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hard-working. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defence. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and travelling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children

. NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hard-working. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.