| The last time I updated this, it was May 3rd, 2006. It is now...July 13th, 2007. That means I'll be 20 in about 11 days. I updated this thing religiously when I was 16/17. Dare I go back and read old entries? I'd be sooo embarrassed, but I think I might. It's interesting to see what you were like once upon a time. That way you can either say "Wow, I really hate how I was back then" and figure out ways to stray away from that...or you can realize how grounded and smart you were, and work to get back to yourself. We'll see what I end up doing.
I wonder if I still have friends on here..hmm.. | comments: Envoyez un commentaire   |
| | I haven't updated this in a good while. Not much to say. I'm bored. I miss school. I miss certain people *cough*. I hate this town. I really believe that I do. I don't know how I lived here for 18 years(well Edwardsville, Maryville, Collinsville...all the same dang place) and didn't go crazy. Dang. | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| This just in.
3 out of 3 Collinsville kids who went to Greenville now say that they feel out of place here.
1 out of 1 Sabrina says that she feels out of place after being in St. Charles.
What the crap? | | comments: 1 commentaire or Envoyez un commentaire |
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So, I dont' update for 3 months and get that message. I'm not changing my effin password, eff that! Go ahead and guess my password. Go hijack my journal. I don't care, just leave my password alone! | | comments: 1 commentaire or Envoyez un commentaire |
| Wow. So Shak-a-thon. Live in a box in Scott field for 2 days without eating anything and you're supposed to feel 'rewarded' and know what it's like to be homeless. BUT, silly me I'm not feeling what it's like to be homeless. I'm feeling what it's it's like to be cold, ticked off,and chlostraphobic....but not homeless. Maybe if you have asthma you shouldn't sleep in a box in the cold. Oh well, I'm not that smart. Certain people are ticking me off, like this one bia who's trying to take my man AND kates man at the same time. She knows what she's doing. SHe's our 'friend' but not really. Because she sucks. I should set her shak on fire. I was supposed to set dales on fire, but yeah we already broke it. We rolled him down the hill. And his shack broke. Now I sleep on top of it. lol.
There's an absolutely beautiful guy in here right now. HE's not cute, not hot...just beautiful. He's like an effin greek god or something. Like zeuss or hercules...or fabio! Amazing..this guy is just amazing looking. No man should be that beautiful. It's either him or Taylor Hanson..lol, 2 most beautiful men ever. When I'm around him or like in his prescence I feel unworthy or something. Like i'm not good enough to breathe the same sacred AIR as this kid. Beautiful. | | comments: 4 commentaires or Envoyez un commentaire |
| | I don't even know anymore..I think I quit.....yeah, I'm pretty sure that I'm confused. | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| | Wow. So yeah. I never, ever, ever thought I wouldn't like something that Hanson did. I mean, really, I thought that I'd love ever song, CD and video that they ever made, just because, ya know they're Hanson. But their new video...*shakes head* I just don't know what to say. I want to love it..and I want to think it's awesome..but then I'd be lying to myself lol. This is a sad sad day for me. This is a historical moment...I hate...i mean I...I really.....Ireallydontlikehansonsnewvideo. :( It's just...it makes me wonder what the heck kind of drugs they were on when they thought of the concept for it! that was hard. please forgive me. | | comments: 2 commentaires or Envoyez un commentaire |
| HAPPY BIRFDEY TWIN ASHALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
Now you're legal to do whatever or whomever you please!! Oh Jordan!! Joel, we got a LEGAL one for ya!!
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| i haven't updated lj in a long time. like everyone else, i left lj for
xanga. im a horrible person. but i get more comments there, and
i'm a comment whore, lol so yeah! heres a copy and paste though,
in case any of you were suffering witthout my updates. (insert eye roll)
Hmmm....not much is going on right now, but i'm bored, so I guess all I
have left to do is update this thing. I was really hoping it wouldn't
come down to that, because I always end up rambling and saying really
really pointless things that noone really cares about. Even I think my
entries are really boring, lol buuuttt thats okay.
Like I said before, not much is happening around here. Just me getting
ready to head off into the jungle(IE: Greenville!). Finally finished
up my shopping today, and oh my goodness, I never knew that there was
soooo much! Really overwhelming. We ran into a few of my moms friends,
and one was from Greenville and she found out I was going there and was
like "is it your first year?" and I told her it was and she's like
"It'll be your last"  How encouraging lol, but she did go off about how hot the guys were there so ya know...
Then we ran into another one of my moms friends(we ran into everyone
today, no joke lol) and we were talking about me leaving for college
and she goes "You're so cute(
whoooa lol), you look so young!!" and her daughter goes "I saw you
earlier and figured you were like 15!". haha, thats a big step up from
12! When I got home, my mom decided it was time for me to pack,a nd
yeah, lol she basically did it for me. Okay, she did it all for me, I
just got everything for her and she went to town.
LOL, is it bad that my mommy packed my bags? Maybe thats why everyone
is spazzing about me going off on my own. Haha, family, friends, even
my brothers friends are all worried about me. All of my brothers
friends are like "Dude...she's so sheltered, is she going to be able to
handle the mean world?" Like....people I haven't seen since my brother
was in grade school are all freaking out. I've gotten some offers from
a few guys in case I need a body guard. That was pretty ackward. lol.
i'm like 'dude..i'm going to big bad Greenville...oooooh alert the
national guards.'  My
family members on both sides are taking bets on how long it will be
before i crack. They all seem to be under the impression that since
when I was little, i'd freak out when anyone who wasn't my mom or dad
looked at me looked at me, that I wont be able to handle being away
from them 18 years later? Makes sense to me! lol, so yeah, now i'm
determined to prove everyone wrong. And since I always have to be
right, bring it on!
Oh, and I finally caught up to 2005 technology and my mom ordered me a
cell phone, because Greenville is long distance. Finally! lol, I feel
complete! If anyone wants the number just ask...even though I don't
know WHY you would. I don't have it yet, it's in the mail and shoudl be here by monday..lol ashley thinks its weird that we ordered it by phone.... | | comments: 6 commentaires or Envoyez un commentaire |
| | I just realized that I haven't seen Sabrina online in a long while! I know the storm fried her internet...but for that long? Sabrina where are you! Do i need to send out a search party? | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| | Hm, I think it's finally time to update this thing! I've been all over the internet talking to people from Greenville, because ya know, i don't want to go in there totally lost and I started talking to this girl named Heather. She's really cool and we have so much in common, it's kind of scary lol, and yeah we got to talking about how cool it would be if we were roommates and how much fun we would have. So yeah, after I found out Robin wasn't going(wihfalkjak!! grrrr), Heather called the dude she's been talking to at Greenville and I emailed my counselor Jen and we waited and waited. Today, i was sleeping peacefully(Yeah, it was like 2 lol) and my brother hands me the phone and goes "It's your roommate" and yeah, it being early for me, I'm like wtf is he talking about and yeah, I answered the phone and shes like "WE'RE ROOMIES!!" haha, I'm like omg what and yeah, we talked for awhile and yeah, i finally have a roommate! and I know her! and I like her and I don't think(lol dont THINK) she'll try to kill me in the middle of the night. Haha yay! *dances* I have a roomie and she's not like scar face! That takes SO much pressure off! whew! Now we know what to bring and what the other is bringing and all that stuff and we already have sort of an understanding with each other....it almost seems too good to be true. lol thats never good | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| Yeah, so school starts for everyone here on the 16th, so that's kind of
weird. This summer flew by..it's really scary. So yeah, we took
my brother and sister to register for school today, and when we took my
little brother to register at the Middle School, it happend again.
EVERYONE thought that I was the one registering, instead of him. Then,
this lady proceeded to ask if we were twins. 
Hmph. I just keep telling myself that in a few years I'll want to look
younger. Now it's just kind of weird though. That's like what...the
10th event in the past year or so?
I get a kiddie cup at Denny's because the waitress was like 80..that made me mad, I wanted a big glass of soda!
The girl at McDonalds kept asking me if I was old enough to drive, and
if I was sure that I wasn't out joyriding. Finally I showed her my
license to shut her up.
My moms friend meets us and asks where the kid is that just got her
license. She points to me. The friend says "She doesn't look a day over
12!"
I take my sister to her friends house and her friend's sister goes "You
can't drive! You look like you're 10!" Her other friend goes "Oh shut up,
she looks at least 12!"
I take my sister to her OTHER friend's house and her friend's older
sister asks me if I know any high school kids.I tell her that i'm in
her grade and she goes "Oh...I thought you were still in middle
school...you look so YOUNG"
All of my brother's friends think that I'm alot younger than I am
Noone at the Hanson concert believed that I was 17. Apparently I don't know how old I am?
At my mom's school reunion when she told them I'd graduated that day,
99% of them thought she meant middle school. That extra 1% has known me
since I was 2.
It used to be kind of funny, but now it's just old. *yawn* The verdict
is in, I look like I'm 12 apparently. Majority rules. I wish I could be
12 again. That was a fun age.  | | comments: 2 commentaires or Envoyez un commentaire |
| | The journal is different..for now. I dont know how much I like the blackness, so it'll be pink tomorrow. I'm just tired of messing with it! | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| Wow, so my brother got another weird phone call at like 1 AM tonight
and this time it wasn't that Cindy chick, it was a bunch of guys.
Basically they kept asking me where he was and I kept saying I don't
know, and then after awhile they started dropping a couple of F-bombs
and A-bombs and all kinds of other bombs lol, so I finally gave the
phone to my dad since everyone thinks that he's my brother when I hand
him the phone, and when they heard "my brother" they hung up.
So, I told my brother about it when they got home and told him some of
the words coming out of their mouths and he like snapped. He
called them and used some words I've never heard come out of his mouth,
mixed in with some "you don't use those words around my little sister
EVER". Haha, not like you're not using them right now telling them not
to use them! I wasnt supposed to hear though, so shhhh! Haha and it's
not like I haven't heard those words before. But yeah, my brother's
totally protective of me, it's kind of amusing! If I'd known he'd snap
like that I would have let it go.
So, awhile ago, I wrote about how I was worried about my uncle because
he was going off with this girl that he'd met online AGAIN, and how I
didn't think it would work out. Most everyone told me it would be okay,
and blah blah blah, but i KNEW it wouldn't be okay because it's never
okay when he does this. So yeah, they're in South Dakota now and my mom
asked him if he wanted her to forward his money there for him. And he's
like "oh, dont worry about it, I'm coming back on Monday" and shes like
"okay...", but she knew it was coming eventually. But he called on
Tuesday and he's like "They won't let me leave, there's no bus station
here, the closest one is 5 towns and 2 hours away"...or so the
girlfriend TOLD him. My mom called the greyhound station, and there's
a bus station IN THE TOWN, like 26 blocks away from where they live, so
they totally lied to him to keep him there. So, he confronted them
about it and asked the girlfriends mom to drive him to the busstation,
because he's not allowed to drive and the lady won't take him! Like, he
wants out but noone will take him to the bus station to come back
here. And he can't walk because he has bad knees, and if he walks more
than a mile he'll like collapse or something. So I don't know. It's so
messed up. We told him not to go, that he'd want to come back in like a
month..and okay it's been a LITTLE more than a month, but still. Noone
listens to us. Now he's practically being held hostage there, and my
dad is talking about making the drive down there to bust him out. Like
Mission: Impossible or something. I better brush up on my spy skills I
guess! Too bad I'm afraid of confrontation. And the dark! | | comments: 4 commentaires or Envoyez un commentaire |
| | Wow, so my mom and I are more alike than we ever could have imagined. We were talking today about my uncle's girlfriend or whatever she is, and she was telling me about how the girlfriend assumed that my mom doesn't like her. My mom never did anything to make her think that she didn't like her, and the chick goes "well, you never tried to talk to me or get to know me". That made me go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, because that's the exact same problem I have. People think I don't like them because I don't go out of my way to get all in their face and talk to them, and I'm just really really shy and I guess I got that from my mom. So we started talking about how she's always had that problem, and so have I. So many people have told me that they didn't like me because they thought I didn't like them, because I seemed stuck up, and didnt talk to them. I mean, for my mom, this has gone as far back as grade school, and it's the exact same for me. We figured out that we're both really shy at first, and if there isn't some common ground to talk about, we're really not going to talk, because we're not comfortable just walking up to people we don't know and talking to them. So yeah, it really hurts when people accuse you of not liking them or accuse you of being stuck up or whatever when that couldn't be further from the truth. I mean, if you haven't given me a reason to not like you, I probably don't dislike you, ya know? It's kind of annoying too, sorry I'm not all up in your face "hi hi hi lets be best friends!!!!! omg!!!", but blame it on my mom. I got it from her obviously! totally not my fault! But yeah, it was definately weird. We keep discovering all these weird little tidbits that we have in common, but to everyone out there, WE DON'T HATE YOU, WE DON'T DISLIKE YOU, WE DON'T HATE ANYONE! WE'RE JUST SHY!! Wait until I TELL you I don't like you..until then, you're probably okay in my book. | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| Hmmm..I guess I should update this thing. I will NOT leave LJ for xanga, I will NOT. Me and LJ are liek THIS. But yeah, not much is going on right now. Less than a month until I go off to college, just like alot of my friends. That's going to be weird. Most of my friends are going off to different states, or at least St. Louis. lol. Or, they're going to SIUE or SWIC. I'm like a lone wolf, off to Greenville by myself. I must be INSANE!! That whole anxiety thing is starting to kick in. We went school supply shopping yesterday for my little brother and sister, but all I got was a dry erase board because they're cool. LOL, I didn't know what else to get, I'm sooooo clueless. Like..what am I supposed to get? Ah! 20 bucks says I go crazy before August 26th.
An amusing little thing happend after we got home though. For some reason, the bottom lock on our front door never ever locks, so we just lock the top one. Well last night, for some reason it actually LOCKED, and when we put the key in the little keyhole thing, the key wouldnt go in because something was jammed in there. So weird. So yeah, we're locked out for like 2 hours while my dad tries everything imaginable to get the door unlocked. Of course noone had a garage door opener and we just HAD to lock all of the patio doors..so yeah that definately sucked. We waited in the car and I think I fell asleep. My mom said we were in there for 2 hours..I don't remember it being nearly that long, so yeah, I probably fell asleep, I always fall asleep in cars. Well, that's all I'm going to write for now, me and ashley are supposed to go looking at tattoo places tomorrow! Another great adventure! I'll update if we don't get eaten by some big scary biker guy named Earl. | | comments: Envoyez un commentaire |
| | ITS MAH BIRFDEY!!! lol, yay? It's the big one. The one where there's no turning back! *sings nfg* "and it's aaaallll down hill from heeeeereeee". I think I'm having a mid-life crisis or something. lol, and wouldn't ya know that when 12:00 came I was watching St. Louis country and "I miss back when" came on by tim mcgraw and then a little bit after that "remember when" came on. So now my sister is making fun of me coz I'm old!! :( Blah on her! OH well, I can do lots now. Like go to jail. And go to war...and buy cigarettes so I can get lung cancer...and buy porno...and buy a lottery ticket so that i can gamble all the money I don't have away...lol yeah. I told my mom I was going to buy a lottery ticket because yeah, cigarettes are too expensive and I don't even smoke so that would be a bust. At least I can frame a lottery ticket or something. lol. | | comments: 2 commentaires or Envoyez un commentaire |
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